And so it continues…depression

Six months ago I told my doctor that I didn’t want to be on my depression meds for ever. Since it has been about five years since I started taking depression meds, I thought I could stop. I take two depression meds and one of them it’s not really a high dose so we decided we should start there. My doctor recommended that I cut down my dosage in 1/2 for 3 months and then 1/2 of that for 2 more. Then I could be weaned off of it. 

For a while it went well but when I stopped taking it…things were awful. I had such a difficult time just getting out of bed. Living my day to day normalities was something I just couldn’t handle. Honestly it scared the living daylights out of me. I wasn’t prepared to go back to feeling like I did before I got help. I thought that I had passed that sad point in my life. 

So as you can guess, I am back on my meds. I am so scared that I will never be able to stop using them. When I was in that horrible point in my life I wanted nothing but to be myself again. That would be my definition of recovery. But the real question here is…Can it happen? Will I ever be really be the same after what my doctor called “a major depressive episode”? Now I believe that I’ll never be quite the same again.


  1. tisonlyme143

    I just want to say, if you need to take them, take them its ok! I took meds also for many of years, and I finally for the past 6 years I have been off them

    1. tisonlyme143

      lol I didn’t get to finish what I was saying lOl,
      Any ‘ what I wanted to say if you feel you need them, then allow them to work for you, but there may come a day you won’t , but you will truly know when that is… If you ever just need someone to chat with , I can tell you stories of my life, and you would probably say wow!! and your off meds LOLL,,,

  2. Linda Manns Linneman

    As a nurse, I have had alot of patients that need to be on antidepressants for life. This is really nothing to worry about. You just need to find what works and stick with it. You will be in my prayers. I also suffer with depression so I know what you are talking about

    1. Silvie (Post author)

      Thank you for your words Linda.


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