Letter to a friend…
Letter to a friend…
I find it so strange that you’re on my mind regularly. I will be going about my day doing the things that keep me busy, when suddenly I’ll see something that reminds me of you. And it makes me wonder… wonder how you are. Wonder if your life has fallen back into place. Wonder if my prayers for your life to be a happy one have been answered. Wonder what you’re up to at that very moment. Wonder if you miss our friendship as mush as I do. Wonder if you miss our conversations. Wonder if you have a friend in your life that gets you as much as you got me. Wonder if you miss all the laughs we had.
Do you know that whenever we would talk it always made me feel like my life was fine, that everything was in it’s place. Do you know that you would bring a smile to my face just by seeing that I had received a message from you, or that you were calling. Do you know that by not being in my life it’s like a piece of me is gone. Do you know just how much our friendship really means to me. Do you know how much of what goes on in my life I’ve wanted to tell you about. Do you know how much I miss your advice. Do you know how much I miss your understanding. Do you know that sometimes when I get the urge to talk to you, I feel sad because I know that even if I do you won’t talk back. Do you know how much I miss being able to tell you everything that was on my mind, and know that no matter how crazy it may be you I knew you wouldn’t judge. Do you know how much I miss your thoughts. Do you know how much I miss your strength. Do you know that most of the time I’m okay, but sometimes I feel crushed by the loss of our friendship. Is this normal? Maybe if I knew what happened, that caused our friendship to end. Maybe then I could understand and deal with it differently. Do you know that what I miss the most is that we would check in with each other almost daily.
I try to look at this positively, maybe it was just time for us to take our own paths. Just know in your heart that if I could change this situation I would but unfortunately I can’t. Just know that every time you come up in my thoughts and even though it makes me sad, I always repeat my my prayer that you are well. I miss that we never text each other just to see what we’re doing, we never even inform each other of anything new happening in our lives. Why did the term friends suddenly just fall apart into strangers? And why is everything so different between us now? I miss you. If there is one last thing I could ask of you…it would be for you to please tell me what happened…
I want you to know that whenever, if you ever decide that you want us to be friends again I will be here for you…always. But for the time being, I will not bother you again.
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The excact same thing happened to me and my best friend! Word of advice don t wait for the answer to come to you. Just go and ask until they answer. Because you wake up one day and realize that is too late… you wake up to know that you will have to live with that dout forever because they are gone.. beacuse you wake to know that this would be your final day to ask them because when death comes there is no tomorrow
Whew, I’ve been there. Losing my best friend to a pile of lies was quite possibly the most difficult loss I faced until I got divorced.
Great letter, I think we have all felt that way before. (just stopping by from #TurnItUpTuesday )
Thank you Laurie. 🙂
What a beautiful article! I miss friends, too. Often it’s not that we’re not talking, just that life is happening and we’re collectively not reserving the space for each other. There are some very very dear friends I’d like to talk to or see more often. Fortunately though, many of them we can have intermittent talks and it’s all ok. I tell myself, one day….one day we’ll be more daily connected. I just don’t know when that is….life is so strange how it tumbles and connects people, only for them to fall off/apart sometimes to meet again, sometimes not.
Sorry for your pain with this friendship…
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Thank you for your words. I am very fortunate though to have friends who have been with me since middle and high school in my life. 🙂 Thanks for stopping by.
Silvie, this is such a heartfelt letter. I think we all go through this and it is so hard when you look back and go “where did ____ go?” because they were such a big part of your life. The one thing that helps me is to remember all of the lessons and things they have taught me and think about the positive things we shared. I hope you can find peace in letting go.
Thank you for your beautiful and caring words Jennifer.